Day 20
I’m quite glad I underwent this experience. My first impulse in doing it was to break an unhealthy attachment to food, and while I don’t know if that was accomplished, I actually discovered what the unhealthy attachment was. My ego used food to hurt me and my body. There were times where I felt I couldn’t control myself in what I was eating, now I know where that came from, and I can put a stop to it.
As for healing, I know and believe my GI tract system is healthier now. I just won’t be seeing those results quite yet. Nothing to worry or care about, those will come and I will be wonderful grateful at my new found health. Or should I say, rediscovery at a return of the great health I use to be in.
So, went about half the day with water. Lost another pound, but I peed a lot this morning before weighing myself. Still some rumbling and cramping in the intestines. Tongue was still coated, so got detoxing to do while juicing. Still body pain in the sides and lower back. Kind of cold today. Emotionally I was feeling good and excited to change to a juice fast.
Had a wonderful energy psychology session (or EFT) today, everything that was in my way of keeping me from being healthy by the end of the month is gone now. Still up to me and my actions and thoughts, to get their though. But I will be traveling with Swami and I will be healthy.
Think that’s about it, I’ll continue the juicing part of this day in a juicing blog.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and guided.
Weight: 136
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Day 19 of the Fast
Day 19
The past three days have been pretty wonderful. Definitely my best three days in a row on this fast. Was so full of energy today, went for a walk and I was feeling so calm and at peace. It was magically. It makes me kind of want to continue with the water fasting, but the body and higher guidance have spoken and I will be transitioning to a juice fast tomorrow. I’m not sure how long it will last, yet.
That calm peaceful feeling was definitely a feeling of being on the right path though. Peaceful and everything is as it is supposed to be.
So, lost a pound. Tongue is still coated, but mostly the center and left side. Colon still a bit ugh feeling, but wasn’t too bad today. Did have some cramping. Was a bit of a cold feeling day, but it was fine. Do get some pain from under my ribs, not under them, but lower down in my body. Lower back seems to be acting up again.
Going back to the good, last weekend it seemed like my eyes were getting lighter (been dark brown) and starting to get specs of gold. This weekend, I thought they were getting darker, almost like I was losing my light. Not sure how to word that correctly, but today they were looking lighter again. My guess, as I continue to detox my body with juice, they could continue to get a bit lighter with more gold. At least, I’d like that.
Oh, my belly, there is still belly fat (don’t care), but it seems to be a lot less bloated/sticking out, then it use to be. Hopefully that means the intestines are much healthier now. And I have been still gassy and feeling a bit bloated, so given that, plus the big decrease, I’m saying it is a great positive sign.
What else is there to say? The fast, while it was brutal at times, has definitely been beautiful (to steal someone else’s phrase), and I’m quite excited to see all the healing my system has undertaken during this experience.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, guided meditation, and a walk about 45 minutes.
Weight: 137
The past three days have been pretty wonderful. Definitely my best three days in a row on this fast. Was so full of energy today, went for a walk and I was feeling so calm and at peace. It was magically. It makes me kind of want to continue with the water fasting, but the body and higher guidance have spoken and I will be transitioning to a juice fast tomorrow. I’m not sure how long it will last, yet.
That calm peaceful feeling was definitely a feeling of being on the right path though. Peaceful and everything is as it is supposed to be.
So, lost a pound. Tongue is still coated, but mostly the center and left side. Colon still a bit ugh feeling, but wasn’t too bad today. Did have some cramping. Was a bit of a cold feeling day, but it was fine. Do get some pain from under my ribs, not under them, but lower down in my body. Lower back seems to be acting up again.
Going back to the good, last weekend it seemed like my eyes were getting lighter (been dark brown) and starting to get specs of gold. This weekend, I thought they were getting darker, almost like I was losing my light. Not sure how to word that correctly, but today they were looking lighter again. My guess, as I continue to detox my body with juice, they could continue to get a bit lighter with more gold. At least, I’d like that.
Oh, my belly, there is still belly fat (don’t care), but it seems to be a lot less bloated/sticking out, then it use to be. Hopefully that means the intestines are much healthier now. And I have been still gassy and feeling a bit bloated, so given that, plus the big decrease, I’m saying it is a great positive sign.
What else is there to say? The fast, while it was brutal at times, has definitely been beautiful (to steal someone else’s phrase), and I’m quite excited to see all the healing my system has undertaken during this experience.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, guided meditation, and a walk about 45 minutes.
Weight: 137
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Day 18 of the Fast
Day 18
I slept fairly well last night, but I accomplished this by going to bed later than I wanted too. Seems while on the fast my body wants to get to bed later and sleep in later. And I had hoped to re-adjust my sleep schedule when fasting. Now I know!
Didn’t lose any weight. Another good energy day, actually went out for a walk because it got up to 50. Did have some cold moments, but I was fine for the walk. First time it has been above 40 I think. Tongue is still coated in some areas, colon still feeling some bloating, rumbling, fullness, but maybe not as bad today. Still got gas though.
Also believe I have come to a decision. My goal has been to fast to completion, but today from higher guidance and my body, I’m feeling for my body, completion doesn’t mean going to true hunger, but switching to juice for perhaps a week. Feels like that would be best, and plan to do that in the afternoon of day 20 or on day 21. Body hasn’t given clear directions on that yet. Feels like the right choice though, I was getting attached to going to “true hunger” while saying I wasn’t attached to a number. My focus was getting too locked in on one thing.
I know I have done some healing, and I know this change will finish the healing. I will be healthy by the end of this month. That’s my intention, my goal, and the reality I’m creating. I’m actually healthy now, to be honest, but the illusion/reality I currently exist in has me not so much. So, changing that, to one in which I do reflect my true self. A physically strong and healthy person with a perfectly function body and GI tract.
I'm quite excited.
Hmm… not sure what else to say, so the end for now.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, guided meditations, and a walk about 40 minutes.
Weight: 138
I slept fairly well last night, but I accomplished this by going to bed later than I wanted too. Seems while on the fast my body wants to get to bed later and sleep in later. And I had hoped to re-adjust my sleep schedule when fasting. Now I know!
Didn’t lose any weight. Another good energy day, actually went out for a walk because it got up to 50. Did have some cold moments, but I was fine for the walk. First time it has been above 40 I think. Tongue is still coated in some areas, colon still feeling some bloating, rumbling, fullness, but maybe not as bad today. Still got gas though.
Also believe I have come to a decision. My goal has been to fast to completion, but today from higher guidance and my body, I’m feeling for my body, completion doesn’t mean going to true hunger, but switching to juice for perhaps a week. Feels like that would be best, and plan to do that in the afternoon of day 20 or on day 21. Body hasn’t given clear directions on that yet. Feels like the right choice though, I was getting attached to going to “true hunger” while saying I wasn’t attached to a number. My focus was getting too locked in on one thing.
I know I have done some healing, and I know this change will finish the healing. I will be healthy by the end of this month. That’s my intention, my goal, and the reality I’m creating. I’m actually healthy now, to be honest, but the illusion/reality I currently exist in has me not so much. So, changing that, to one in which I do reflect my true self. A physically strong and healthy person with a perfectly function body and GI tract.
I'm quite excited.
Hmm… not sure what else to say, so the end for now.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, guided meditations, and a walk about 40 minutes.
Weight: 138
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Day 17 of the Fast
Day 17
Another restless night last night. After lying in bed for an hour and a half, got up and did some more work at the computer for Swami. Yesterday with the realization I wanted to travel with him, I rededicated myself to having everything finished and placing my faith in his Guru it will be done. Ended up getting about four hours of sleep. The amazing part, for the first time in about 2 weeks, I wasn’t really tired at all today. I wasn’t dragging myself at all. Much gratitude to the Swami and Guru. Spirituality can help a fast.
Hunger pangs seemed a bit worse today, however. They don’t last long, but at times do come back quicker. Pretty positive it isn’t true hunger yet, since it hasn’t been nearly as bad as I have heard it was. Tongue is still coated, muscle in my back I strained a while go is still bothering me, neck a bit too, colon is still making itself know to me, but really wasn’t cold today. Still thirsty, but not nearly as thirsty as I have been.
I have thought about food some, but when I focus my mind on the things I need to get done, there are no thoughts of food. Emotionally I was feeling good today.
Dropped a pound, but mostly just water weight. Felt like I should drink late last night, but I really didn’t feel like it. I know that can be bad.
Went to a yoga class tonight, called Maha Sadhana, but only stayed for the first hour plus when we did chanting, purification techniques, and had spiritual discourse. Great to have happen while fasting, because you are “detoxing” the spiritual and physical body with those techniques. Always good to find extra ways to help the fasting process in its detoxing. I will be chanting the purification mantra now as much as I can remember to do too, because it helps heal disease. Exactly what I want help with.
Had some light headed starry moments getting up, not too bad. When I had to hold my arms up for about a minute or so in the class, definitely felt the muscles had no fuel in them. It is all good though, they will come back stronger with a healthy diet.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, + extra pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and a guided meditation.
Weight: 138
Another restless night last night. After lying in bed for an hour and a half, got up and did some more work at the computer for Swami. Yesterday with the realization I wanted to travel with him, I rededicated myself to having everything finished and placing my faith in his Guru it will be done. Ended up getting about four hours of sleep. The amazing part, for the first time in about 2 weeks, I wasn’t really tired at all today. I wasn’t dragging myself at all. Much gratitude to the Swami and Guru. Spirituality can help a fast.
Hunger pangs seemed a bit worse today, however. They don’t last long, but at times do come back quicker. Pretty positive it isn’t true hunger yet, since it hasn’t been nearly as bad as I have heard it was. Tongue is still coated, muscle in my back I strained a while go is still bothering me, neck a bit too, colon is still making itself know to me, but really wasn’t cold today. Still thirsty, but not nearly as thirsty as I have been.
I have thought about food some, but when I focus my mind on the things I need to get done, there are no thoughts of food. Emotionally I was feeling good today.
Dropped a pound, but mostly just water weight. Felt like I should drink late last night, but I really didn’t feel like it. I know that can be bad.
Went to a yoga class tonight, called Maha Sadhana, but only stayed for the first hour plus when we did chanting, purification techniques, and had spiritual discourse. Great to have happen while fasting, because you are “detoxing” the spiritual and physical body with those techniques. Always good to find extra ways to help the fasting process in its detoxing. I will be chanting the purification mantra now as much as I can remember to do too, because it helps heal disease. Exactly what I want help with.
Had some light headed starry moments getting up, not too bad. When I had to hold my arms up for about a minute or so in the class, definitely felt the muscles had no fuel in them. It is all good though, they will come back stronger with a healthy diet.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, + extra pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and a guided meditation.
Weight: 138
Friday, March 5, 2010
Day 16 of the Fast
Day 16
I realized something today. I think I would like to travel with Swami on his tour of the Midwest and West coast this year. It will be starting on April 14th and if this fast goes to completion by 30 days, it will end on March 19th. Giving me about 2 and a half weeks to observe how my body has healed and get it back on solid food again. And hope it would be able to handle tour food. Not the healthiest in the world, but also not that bad.
But… I believe this will heal me. So I don’t need to think about that. I will have a normal functioning GI tract and being on tour will be easy. No long bathroom stops, no need for a bunch of stops per day, what goes in me will come out of me easily and quickly. The only thing I will have to watch is weight gain and the “normal” ick feeling someone might get after eating poorly and stuffing him or herself. I will be able to indulge at an Indian buffet and be fine the next day to continue travel with no issues (Actually it would be better to say, when staying at an Indian family home, I could let them lovingly stuff me without any problems the next day. They love doing that because food/giving is love).
That is the intention I’m setting and so it shall be.
Wow though… website needs a lot of work and there is still a ton of cities I need to have set up. I got a lot to do while fasting to be able to go!
Anyway, no weight loss. Another poor night of sleep, with lots of dreams, but I don’t remember any being about food. Tongue is still coated, but not totally, I was cold today, and dragging myself for the first part of the day from feeling tired and drained. Although it seems once I throw myself in to working on setting up Swami’s tour (and website), I feel less tired and fuller of energy.
Still some gas, not as much today I think. Colon has still been rumbling, feeling a bit bloated, and not the happiest. Didn’t try to pass anything though, giving it a break from trying. Hopefully it will let me when it really needs too. Been getting some general body aches and pain. Wrists have been feeling decent, neck and knees still trouble me. Also still thinking about food a lot. Not really craving, just a more desire to be done fasting and getting back in to the swing of eating.
I don’t think I’ve been as thirsty today, still thirsty, just not as much. Emotionally, I got a little grumpy for a bit but it passed. Have been seeing stars at times when getting up, not all the time, and I think only once or twice did I see nothing but stars. And I think that’s it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and a guided meditation.
Weight: 139
I realized something today. I think I would like to travel with Swami on his tour of the Midwest and West coast this year. It will be starting on April 14th and if this fast goes to completion by 30 days, it will end on March 19th. Giving me about 2 and a half weeks to observe how my body has healed and get it back on solid food again. And hope it would be able to handle tour food. Not the healthiest in the world, but also not that bad.
But… I believe this will heal me. So I don’t need to think about that. I will have a normal functioning GI tract and being on tour will be easy. No long bathroom stops, no need for a bunch of stops per day, what goes in me will come out of me easily and quickly. The only thing I will have to watch is weight gain and the “normal” ick feeling someone might get after eating poorly and stuffing him or herself. I will be able to indulge at an Indian buffet and be fine the next day to continue travel with no issues (Actually it would be better to say, when staying at an Indian family home, I could let them lovingly stuff me without any problems the next day. They love doing that because food/giving is love).
That is the intention I’m setting and so it shall be.
Wow though… website needs a lot of work and there is still a ton of cities I need to have set up. I got a lot to do while fasting to be able to go!
Anyway, no weight loss. Another poor night of sleep, with lots of dreams, but I don’t remember any being about food. Tongue is still coated, but not totally, I was cold today, and dragging myself for the first part of the day from feeling tired and drained. Although it seems once I throw myself in to working on setting up Swami’s tour (and website), I feel less tired and fuller of energy.
Still some gas, not as much today I think. Colon has still been rumbling, feeling a bit bloated, and not the happiest. Didn’t try to pass anything though, giving it a break from trying. Hopefully it will let me when it really needs too. Been getting some general body aches and pain. Wrists have been feeling decent, neck and knees still trouble me. Also still thinking about food a lot. Not really craving, just a more desire to be done fasting and getting back in to the swing of eating.
I don’t think I’ve been as thirsty today, still thirsty, just not as much. Emotionally, I got a little grumpy for a bit but it passed. Have been seeing stars at times when getting up, not all the time, and I think only once or twice did I see nothing but stars. And I think that’s it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and a guided meditation.
Weight: 139
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Day 15 of the Fast
Day 15
Another night of not sleeping too well, but I’ve had worse nights so I’m not complaining. Today though, ouch. A lot of the day I was just feeling tired unless I was lying down. This didn’t happen all of the day, just most of it. Not very pleasant when you have work to accomplish.
The colon is still not feeling too well, still been really thirsty, definitely been having moments of cold, and still having hunger pangs but they don’t seem to last too long. Still gassy as well. My tongue is also coated, but it seems to be less coated than it has been, so hopefully good news there.
Emotionally, today was fine. Just a sense of this wearing on me. Like I would like to be completed with the fast and healthy (then going on to the trying to break the fast slowly and right stage), but heck… if it is another 15 days of this to heal 15 years of problems, I’m more than happy to do that.
Been thinking about food a lot. Talking about food a lot today too. But you know what? It really doesn’t bother me. Be a lie to say it doesn’t at all, but no strong craving for it anymore. So really think I’ve moved past the food cravings stage.
Oh yeah… today and yesterday I needed to continue to be careful with getting up too fast. Light headed and stars if I didn’t, although that seemed to go away as today went on. Was getting a pain right under the bottom of my left side rib cage, could be intestinal related, but it is gone now. And a pound was lost.
Did have the energy to go to the beginning part of a yoga class... chanting and spiritual discourse, left for the asana part though. I know the body isn’t up for that.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas and an hour of meditation.
Weight: 139
Another night of not sleeping too well, but I’ve had worse nights so I’m not complaining. Today though, ouch. A lot of the day I was just feeling tired unless I was lying down. This didn’t happen all of the day, just most of it. Not very pleasant when you have work to accomplish.
The colon is still not feeling too well, still been really thirsty, definitely been having moments of cold, and still having hunger pangs but they don’t seem to last too long. Still gassy as well. My tongue is also coated, but it seems to be less coated than it has been, so hopefully good news there.
Emotionally, today was fine. Just a sense of this wearing on me. Like I would like to be completed with the fast and healthy (then going on to the trying to break the fast slowly and right stage), but heck… if it is another 15 days of this to heal 15 years of problems, I’m more than happy to do that.
Been thinking about food a lot. Talking about food a lot today too. But you know what? It really doesn’t bother me. Be a lie to say it doesn’t at all, but no strong craving for it anymore. So really think I’ve moved past the food cravings stage.
Oh yeah… today and yesterday I needed to continue to be careful with getting up too fast. Light headed and stars if I didn’t, although that seemed to go away as today went on. Was getting a pain right under the bottom of my left side rib cage, could be intestinal related, but it is gone now. And a pound was lost.
Did have the energy to go to the beginning part of a yoga class... chanting and spiritual discourse, left for the asana part though. I know the body isn’t up for that.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas and an hour of meditation.
Weight: 139
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Day 14 of the Fast
Day 14
Two weeks! I'm not really focused on the numbers, but wow... that is pretty darned amazing.
Last night I slept decently, which was nice. Didn’t get out of bed when I wanted too though, I have a nice warm water bed and it is nice being in, add to that, that I can use the excuse that giving my body more rest is a good thing, why not stay in it longer?!
Was having moments of tired and weakness today, more so than yesterday. They are getting old. Still had some hunger pangs, also moments of cold today. I definitely need to keep myself dressed warm. My tongue is still coated, throat has some slight moments of soreness still and feels coated, but my throat really didn’t feel swollen at all today.
My colon is still not feeling good, but since that is the main area I need to have heal, I’m going with it is just part of the healing process. Could be healing crisis. Whatever it is, I know the colon will be functioning a lot better once this fast has been completed.
Dreamed last night I broke the fast with some sort of fruit, then celery. There was also a lemon large enough for a man to curl up inside of. Crazy. But during the day, food cravings have been good again. My mind was striking up more thoughts of food today, but they really weren’t bothering me or making me wish to break the fast. Hopefully I’m past the cravings now.
Went to a Satsang tonight where I got “trained” to be a Sai Maa Diksha teacher. Quite unexpected, and more good positive energies to have flow through me. So I’m sure that will have a positive effect too.
And... that’s it I think.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, Hour of meditation, guided meditations, and 15 minutes of pranayamas.
Weight: 140
Two weeks! I'm not really focused on the numbers, but wow... that is pretty darned amazing.
Last night I slept decently, which was nice. Didn’t get out of bed when I wanted too though, I have a nice warm water bed and it is nice being in, add to that, that I can use the excuse that giving my body more rest is a good thing, why not stay in it longer?!
Was having moments of tired and weakness today, more so than yesterday. They are getting old. Still had some hunger pangs, also moments of cold today. I definitely need to keep myself dressed warm. My tongue is still coated, throat has some slight moments of soreness still and feels coated, but my throat really didn’t feel swollen at all today.
My colon is still not feeling good, but since that is the main area I need to have heal, I’m going with it is just part of the healing process. Could be healing crisis. Whatever it is, I know the colon will be functioning a lot better once this fast has been completed.
Dreamed last night I broke the fast with some sort of fruit, then celery. There was also a lemon large enough for a man to curl up inside of. Crazy. But during the day, food cravings have been good again. My mind was striking up more thoughts of food today, but they really weren’t bothering me or making me wish to break the fast. Hopefully I’m past the cravings now.
Went to a Satsang tonight where I got “trained” to be a Sai Maa Diksha teacher. Quite unexpected, and more good positive energies to have flow through me. So I’m sure that will have a positive effect too.
And... that’s it I think.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, Hour of meditation, guided meditations, and 15 minutes of pranayamas.
Weight: 140
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Day 13 of the Fast
Day 13
Happy day! I slept fairly well last night. A lot better than the past few nights. Makes a big difference, in the morning I was still having some tiredness and weakness but it was much better. Had a little at times during the day too, but nothing worth writing home about.
Lost the gained pound. Had some periods of cold, but nothing too bad. I just need to keep myself warmly dressed. Still really thirsty (drank at least 2/3rds of a gallon of water), tongue is coated, still got cramping going on in the colon, and still getting hunger pangs.
Thinking about food and desiring food wasn’t as bad today. Did some meditation yesterday, dealing with the ego and it seems to have helped and carried over to today. There are still some thoughts about food, but I can feel them more pushed back in my mind. That’s not to say I couldn’t draw them up, just not going to try too. Saying that, still some desire to break the fast, but not as bad today.
New symptom developing, I may have to be careful with how fast I get up now. Not every time, but sometimes today I was getting light headed and starry eyed. This may have happened on earlier days, but it happened at least a few times today. Surprised it took this long to happen, since this can be “normal” for me. Normal as in a few times a week.
Had a lovely EFT session with a skilled professional today to help clear out some blocks I have to me healing, still got some more to go, but I believe I have enough pushing me towards health that it is stronger than the forces pulling me back. I will still work on attacking those forces though.
Oh yes, my lower back has been feeling better today. Still some pain maybe, but most of my back pain has come from the strained muscle in it. So that’s a positive change.
If there is anything else, can’t remember at the moment.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, Hour + of meditation, and about 5 minutes of pranayamas.
Weight: 141
Happy day! I slept fairly well last night. A lot better than the past few nights. Makes a big difference, in the morning I was still having some tiredness and weakness but it was much better. Had a little at times during the day too, but nothing worth writing home about.
Lost the gained pound. Had some periods of cold, but nothing too bad. I just need to keep myself warmly dressed. Still really thirsty (drank at least 2/3rds of a gallon of water), tongue is coated, still got cramping going on in the colon, and still getting hunger pangs.
Thinking about food and desiring food wasn’t as bad today. Did some meditation yesterday, dealing with the ego and it seems to have helped and carried over to today. There are still some thoughts about food, but I can feel them more pushed back in my mind. That’s not to say I couldn’t draw them up, just not going to try too. Saying that, still some desire to break the fast, but not as bad today.
New symptom developing, I may have to be careful with how fast I get up now. Not every time, but sometimes today I was getting light headed and starry eyed. This may have happened on earlier days, but it happened at least a few times today. Surprised it took this long to happen, since this can be “normal” for me. Normal as in a few times a week.
Had a lovely EFT session with a skilled professional today to help clear out some blocks I have to me healing, still got some more to go, but I believe I have enough pushing me towards health that it is stronger than the forces pulling me back. I will still work on attacking those forces though.
Oh yes, my lower back has been feeling better today. Still some pain maybe, but most of my back pain has come from the strained muscle in it. So that’s a positive change.
If there is anything else, can’t remember at the moment.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, Hour + of meditation, and about 5 minutes of pranayamas.
Weight: 141
Monday, March 1, 2010
Day 12 of the Fast
Day 12
Gained a pound!
Last night was awful. Lied in bed for 2 hours trying to sleep, couldn’t. My mind was just so focused on food. I wanted to break the fast. Went downstairs to try and fall asleep on the couch, no luck there after 2 and a half hours. To get to the couch I go through the kitchen with cookies visible. They looked sooooo good. I could eat one, no one would have known! Besides me.
Eventually got some sleep in bed, no idea how much.
Something I have been forgetting to mention is that I’ve had a few food dreams. These dreams seemed so real and all result in my waking to think I broke the fast. After I become more awake, I realize they are just dreams.
This morning, the desire to break the fast continued. Was feeling real tired too, weak a little. Had my first “fall down” after getting up. About mid-afternoon I recovered and was feeling mostly fine. Although this evening it has been feeling like there is a healing crisis going on in my colon. Doesn’t feel good at all.
I’m definitely not breaking the fast yet. I am determined to take this till the body tells me to stop. I want to have a healthy body with a perfectly functioning GI tract, and I am not giving up until I have too. I am not. That is the only thing keeping me going at this point. I’ve been sick far too long and it is time to be well.
I know... in yoga it is everything is perfect, and it is… but it also isn’t permanent and can change. Change is what I’m creating.
Tongue is still coated, still very thirsty, throat feels coated and slightly swollen at times, had some cold moments but not too bad. Body still in pain, but I don’t feel like listing everything. And hmm… I think that is it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, 1 and 20 minute meditation, and 10 minutes of pranayama.
Weight: 142
Gained a pound!
Last night was awful. Lied in bed for 2 hours trying to sleep, couldn’t. My mind was just so focused on food. I wanted to break the fast. Went downstairs to try and fall asleep on the couch, no luck there after 2 and a half hours. To get to the couch I go through the kitchen with cookies visible. They looked sooooo good. I could eat one, no one would have known! Besides me.
Eventually got some sleep in bed, no idea how much.
Something I have been forgetting to mention is that I’ve had a few food dreams. These dreams seemed so real and all result in my waking to think I broke the fast. After I become more awake, I realize they are just dreams.
This morning, the desire to break the fast continued. Was feeling real tired too, weak a little. Had my first “fall down” after getting up. About mid-afternoon I recovered and was feeling mostly fine. Although this evening it has been feeling like there is a healing crisis going on in my colon. Doesn’t feel good at all.
I’m definitely not breaking the fast yet. I am determined to take this till the body tells me to stop. I want to have a healthy body with a perfectly functioning GI tract, and I am not giving up until I have too. I am not. That is the only thing keeping me going at this point. I’ve been sick far too long and it is time to be well.
I know... in yoga it is everything is perfect, and it is… but it also isn’t permanent and can change. Change is what I’m creating.
Tongue is still coated, still very thirsty, throat feels coated and slightly swollen at times, had some cold moments but not too bad. Body still in pain, but I don’t feel like listing everything. And hmm… I think that is it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, 1 and 20 minute meditation, and 10 minutes of pranayama.
Weight: 142
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Day 11 of the Fast
Day 11
Dropped another two pounds, which at first didn’t make sense, but the night before I did release a lot of mental, emotional, and spiritual junk making me “lighter” so it does actually makes sense. However, didn’t sleep well again. Lots of waking up. Did have moments of tired and weakness during the day, but more so in the morning, brief moment in the afternoon, and that was about it.
Lower back is still bothering me. The other usual areas too, but right now most painful are the lower back and the muscle I strained in my back. My tongue is still coated. Still really thirsty most of the time.
Went to a Reiki tune-up, attunement, share which was very nice. That definitely charged me up with energy. Then had a full moon gather to go to, which got canceled. Majorly, majorly, disappointed in that. Felt like a lot of old emotional junk was kicked up too, and the ego decided to really step up the food craving since I was upset. Unlike the last real emotional moment, I actually did something constructive with it.
However, the ego was out of its cage after that. When I went to bed, I could not stop from thinking about food. Took a really long time to get to sleep, and I really wanted to break the fast. Although I’ll save the rest of this for day 12. Didn’t break the fast.
Today was definitely a day of feeling like I wanted to stop though. One of the harder ones I think, but that happens when emotional junk gets kicked up and the ego starts to run wild. But also... I think I would like this process to be over, fasting, transitioning back to food... and be healthy and not so easily effected by what I put in to this body.
Hmm... oh yeah, still some coldness. Not too bad. Colon is crampy and feeling bloated (bottom right side feels kinda full), still not able to move things on its own. Body says no to a colonic, but yes to further enema uses... joy!
Edit: Forgot to mention, my throat has been feeling coated too. Hasn't really become sore, but at times it feels a little swollen, dry, and just coated. Interesting feeling.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, guided meditation, and meditation (didn’t time it).
Weight: 141
Dropped another two pounds, which at first didn’t make sense, but the night before I did release a lot of mental, emotional, and spiritual junk making me “lighter” so it does actually makes sense. However, didn’t sleep well again. Lots of waking up. Did have moments of tired and weakness during the day, but more so in the morning, brief moment in the afternoon, and that was about it.
Lower back is still bothering me. The other usual areas too, but right now most painful are the lower back and the muscle I strained in my back. My tongue is still coated. Still really thirsty most of the time.
Went to a Reiki tune-up, attunement, share which was very nice. That definitely charged me up with energy. Then had a full moon gather to go to, which got canceled. Majorly, majorly, disappointed in that. Felt like a lot of old emotional junk was kicked up too, and the ego decided to really step up the food craving since I was upset. Unlike the last real emotional moment, I actually did something constructive with it.
However, the ego was out of its cage after that. When I went to bed, I could not stop from thinking about food. Took a really long time to get to sleep, and I really wanted to break the fast. Although I’ll save the rest of this for day 12. Didn’t break the fast.
Today was definitely a day of feeling like I wanted to stop though. One of the harder ones I think, but that happens when emotional junk gets kicked up and the ego starts to run wild. But also... I think I would like this process to be over, fasting, transitioning back to food... and be healthy and not so easily effected by what I put in to this body.
Hmm... oh yeah, still some coldness. Not too bad. Colon is crampy and feeling bloated (bottom right side feels kinda full), still not able to move things on its own. Body says no to a colonic, but yes to further enema uses... joy!
Edit: Forgot to mention, my throat has been feeling coated too. Hasn't really become sore, but at times it feels a little swollen, dry, and just coated. Interesting feeling.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, guided meditation, and meditation (didn’t time it).
Weight: 141
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Day 10 of the Fast
Day 10
Last night, it seemed like I was waking up every hour. Maybe sometimes less. Made for a real fun time sleeping. When I was up, found out I changed the cycle of no weight loss and was down to 143 now. I’m feeling fine, so really not worried about that. The body can hold so many toxins and extra water in it, that cleansing those will of course drop the weight.
I was feeling a bit tired again today. Came in phases. Sometimes tired, other times not. Really didn’t bother me much, besides when I tried to meditate. Body was in some pain though, mostly my lower back. That’s been quite the pain giver. Other areas, I won’t bother going in too. Hopefully the new aches and pains, heck the old ones too, are just signs the body is detoxing itself.
I still have an attachment to food it would seem. Still thinking about and craving food a bit. Would still love to be able to just eat and eat, whatever, with no consequences. That’s just the ego being silly.
Went to a conscious eating class today and some good messages on eating and what to eat, healthily. Made me realize how well timed it was. After the fast is over, I’ll go in to just juices for a bit. Then solid foods, and this fast is like hitting the reset button on my body. My stomach that was use to the American diet of overeating should be smaller, so I will be able to eat smaller portions and feel full. I’ll also have been off eating a lot of junk for a while, so healthier food should taste better. Just need to prevent any old habits from returning. Although after having done all this fasting, it will be much easier to not throw it all away. I do know, once I’m back to eating the hard work will really start. Sticking to eating healthy. Fasting is easy, just drink water.
Hmm... tongue is still coated. Intestines have been a bit crampy and unhappy at times. Might have to try a colonic. I’ll see. Oh yes, it was a mind trick of it looking like I was gaining fat. Odd one, and not that I really care. The fast isn’t about that, but always a nice added bonus!
Had a wonderful healing session that removed a lot of emotionally/mental/spiritual junk. Didn’t really have any emotional issues today, but was busy so no time for boredom.
And, I think that is it.
Edit: Just remembered, because I had them for a moment, I'm still getting some hunger pangs from time to time. Also was very thirsty again.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, guided meditations, and 1 hour meditation.
Weight: 143
Last night, it seemed like I was waking up every hour. Maybe sometimes less. Made for a real fun time sleeping. When I was up, found out I changed the cycle of no weight loss and was down to 143 now. I’m feeling fine, so really not worried about that. The body can hold so many toxins and extra water in it, that cleansing those will of course drop the weight.
I was feeling a bit tired again today. Came in phases. Sometimes tired, other times not. Really didn’t bother me much, besides when I tried to meditate. Body was in some pain though, mostly my lower back. That’s been quite the pain giver. Other areas, I won’t bother going in too. Hopefully the new aches and pains, heck the old ones too, are just signs the body is detoxing itself.
I still have an attachment to food it would seem. Still thinking about and craving food a bit. Would still love to be able to just eat and eat, whatever, with no consequences. That’s just the ego being silly.
Went to a conscious eating class today and some good messages on eating and what to eat, healthily. Made me realize how well timed it was. After the fast is over, I’ll go in to just juices for a bit. Then solid foods, and this fast is like hitting the reset button on my body. My stomach that was use to the American diet of overeating should be smaller, so I will be able to eat smaller portions and feel full. I’ll also have been off eating a lot of junk for a while, so healthier food should taste better. Just need to prevent any old habits from returning. Although after having done all this fasting, it will be much easier to not throw it all away. I do know, once I’m back to eating the hard work will really start. Sticking to eating healthy. Fasting is easy, just drink water.
Hmm... tongue is still coated. Intestines have been a bit crampy and unhappy at times. Might have to try a colonic. I’ll see. Oh yes, it was a mind trick of it looking like I was gaining fat. Odd one, and not that I really care. The fast isn’t about that, but always a nice added bonus!
Had a wonderful healing session that removed a lot of emotionally/mental/spiritual junk. Didn’t really have any emotional issues today, but was busy so no time for boredom.
And, I think that is it.
Edit: Just remembered, because I had them for a moment, I'm still getting some hunger pangs from time to time. Also was very thirsty again.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, guided meditations, and 1 hour meditation.
Weight: 143
Friday, February 26, 2010
Day 9 of the Fast
Day 9
Again, no weight loss. So that was good. I was feeling cold again today, more so than yesterday, but it didn’t seem to be all day. A couple hours after waking I was feeling tired and weak again, that lasted on and off for a couple more hours.
Still some lower back pain, along with a muscle up the side of my back. Hamstring still isn’t right, but it wasn’t telling me so all day. Still some issues with the knees, wrist, and neck too. For some reason it seems my stomach area has gained fat, er? Hopefully a mind trick.
Been thirsty a lot. Third day in a row I believe. Still not sure I’m moving out all the water I’m putting in. Really odd, storing it in my tummy fat? Ended up using an enema, the body wanted it and it did cause me to pass some stuff. A little solid, the rest not. Hopefully toxins being removed from the body.
Not the best mental/emotional days. Still thinking about food, had some moments of wanting to break the fast again. Emotionally though, had plans to go out fall through again, that makes three days stuck at home. So I was feeling extremely bored. Also had an on edge feeling, just a lot of… energy of the… not sure what type to call it, but it is maddening. That luckily has mostly passed now.
Oh think I may have watched a little more TV today then I should have.. being all crazy bored and having gotten stuff done, caused that. But I finally got to see how the 6th Sense ends. I was shocked at the twist! I won't say what, I don't want to spoil it.
(edit: Looking back on this today, I was a bit too focused on the muck to do more positive things... it's a learning process)
Tongue is still coated, and I think that’s it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas and 1 hour meditation.
Weight: 145
Again, no weight loss. So that was good. I was feeling cold again today, more so than yesterday, but it didn’t seem to be all day. A couple hours after waking I was feeling tired and weak again, that lasted on and off for a couple more hours.
Still some lower back pain, along with a muscle up the side of my back. Hamstring still isn’t right, but it wasn’t telling me so all day. Still some issues with the knees, wrist, and neck too. For some reason it seems my stomach area has gained fat, er? Hopefully a mind trick.
Been thirsty a lot. Third day in a row I believe. Still not sure I’m moving out all the water I’m putting in. Really odd, storing it in my tummy fat? Ended up using an enema, the body wanted it and it did cause me to pass some stuff. A little solid, the rest not. Hopefully toxins being removed from the body.
Not the best mental/emotional days. Still thinking about food, had some moments of wanting to break the fast again. Emotionally though, had plans to go out fall through again, that makes three days stuck at home. So I was feeling extremely bored. Also had an on edge feeling, just a lot of… energy of the… not sure what type to call it, but it is maddening. That luckily has mostly passed now.
Oh think I may have watched a little more TV today then I should have.. being all crazy bored and having gotten stuff done, caused that. But I finally got to see how the 6th Sense ends. I was shocked at the twist! I won't say what, I don't want to spoil it.
(edit: Looking back on this today, I was a bit too focused on the muck to do more positive things... it's a learning process)
Tongue is still coated, and I think that’s it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas and 1 hour meditation.
Weight: 145
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Day 8 of the Fast
Day 8
A day of blessings.
My hamstring was making it known today it wants to be taken care of gingerly. I came to the conclusion it was injured to tell me to stop doing activities that work the body a lot. Okay, medium too. So it was a blessing, I want this fast to heal this body, and going too hard will hinder that.
To further the point, believe I strained something in my back, and the lower back has been problematic. Positive the pain isn't coming from the kidneys, because moving helps the pain. It is only in certain positions.
The next blessing I realized, pretty much every day I have either; been around food, smelled food cooking, or seen people eating. Not exactly ideal if you are fasting, right? But one of my goals for this fast was to break my mind’s attachment to food. So far I can’t say that has happened, more so the monkey mind just gets annoyed and throws things, but hopefully it will break.
Another one, today I was planning on visiting some friends. They didn’t want me to because they felt the driving was too bad because of the snow storm predicted today. I’m a very experienced snow driver, and it really wasn’t that bad out, but I honored their wishes. Boo, right? Nope, got some more Swami tour work done that produced results and did some EFT to clear some negative beliefs. Been meaning to do some clearing, but was always remembering while in the middle of something else.
Anyway, didn’t loss any weight. I woke up thinking I was chewing bubble gum, had the taste in my mouth. I haven’t had any bubble gum in years. I was a little cold today, but not as bad as other days. I have been really thirsty again.
My colon has been cramping today. Feels like there might be stuff I need to pass, but nada. Still a little gassy too.
Hunger pangs have continued. Please go away? But all the food exposure must not be helping. It definitely isn’t helping the food, they aren’t exactly cravings, sometimes… but it is usually more just thinking about food. At times I have really been thinking I’d like to stop and just eat!! Also, have been watching a little TV, ugh… not good on a fast because it exposes you to more food too. When I see people just piggy out, it really makes me wish I had a perfectly healthy body and could eat whatever I wanted without consequences. Wouldn’t that be heaven? I still have an attachment to food. I WANT FOOD!
Was experiencing a bunch of boredom today, but that could be explained by having wanted to get out of the house and having put in a lot of working on Swami’s Tour. Still got the white tongue, might be a bit less today. Not entirely sure.
Finished the day with a soak in the tub with epsom salt and lavender.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, guided meditation, and 1 hour meditation.
Weight: 145
A day of blessings.
My hamstring was making it known today it wants to be taken care of gingerly. I came to the conclusion it was injured to tell me to stop doing activities that work the body a lot. Okay, medium too. So it was a blessing, I want this fast to heal this body, and going too hard will hinder that.
To further the point, believe I strained something in my back, and the lower back has been problematic. Positive the pain isn't coming from the kidneys, because moving helps the pain. It is only in certain positions.
The next blessing I realized, pretty much every day I have either; been around food, smelled food cooking, or seen people eating. Not exactly ideal if you are fasting, right? But one of my goals for this fast was to break my mind’s attachment to food. So far I can’t say that has happened, more so the monkey mind just gets annoyed and throws things, but hopefully it will break.
Another one, today I was planning on visiting some friends. They didn’t want me to because they felt the driving was too bad because of the snow storm predicted today. I’m a very experienced snow driver, and it really wasn’t that bad out, but I honored their wishes. Boo, right? Nope, got some more Swami tour work done that produced results and did some EFT to clear some negative beliefs. Been meaning to do some clearing, but was always remembering while in the middle of something else.
Anyway, didn’t loss any weight. I woke up thinking I was chewing bubble gum, had the taste in my mouth. I haven’t had any bubble gum in years. I was a little cold today, but not as bad as other days. I have been really thirsty again.
My colon has been cramping today. Feels like there might be stuff I need to pass, but nada. Still a little gassy too.
Hunger pangs have continued. Please go away? But all the food exposure must not be helping. It definitely isn’t helping the food, they aren’t exactly cravings, sometimes… but it is usually more just thinking about food. At times I have really been thinking I’d like to stop and just eat!! Also, have been watching a little TV, ugh… not good on a fast because it exposes you to more food too. When I see people just piggy out, it really makes me wish I had a perfectly healthy body and could eat whatever I wanted without consequences. Wouldn’t that be heaven? I still have an attachment to food. I WANT FOOD!
Was experiencing a bunch of boredom today, but that could be explained by having wanted to get out of the house and having put in a lot of working on Swami’s Tour. Still got the white tongue, might be a bit less today. Not entirely sure.
Finished the day with a soak in the tub with epsom salt and lavender.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, guided meditation, and 1 hour meditation.
Weight: 145
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Day 7 of the Fast
Day 7
Interesting day. The first 6 days of the fast I only drank a little more than 2 gallons of water, today I went through almost a gallon. Was really thirsty most of the day. They say on a water fast to only drink when thirsty. Didn’t seem like I had as much fluid coming out as I had coming in either, which is the opposite of some days. Also dropped two pounds to 145 today.
Can pretty much “blame” the advanced yoga class on that one, and I don’t know if I’ll be doing that or anymore classes while on this fast. My right hamstring definitely feels like it was strained a little. It was worse earlier in the day, so hopefully not too badly. I was sore too, but in a more painfully bad than good way. Something to monitor and see if the body feels up for another class at some point, but I don’t want to increase the weight loss either.
Got to bed at an earlier time which I liked. Read for about an hour and got to sleep fairly well, woke up after about an hour, then believe I slept with no waking till 8:30 am and decided to get up then. Body temp was 95.5, yikes! But it went up as the day went on.
Hunger pangs seemed a little stronger today, but still tolerable, still got the white coat on my tongue, and still some gassiness. Showering got me tired again, and I’ve noticed my calves seem to hurt/cramp while showering. Very odd.
Emotionally I was fine today, universe was trying to stress me, but I didn’t let it get to me... too much. Still craving and thinking about food. Today’s item that got the most thought was avocado and potato all mashed up together with some spices, no salt. No idea how it would work, but right now it sounds like heaven. Think it would be really healthy too.
Today I thought I’d be able to get a lot of stuff done, did… but not all the things I had hoped too. Stuff kept coming up that needed attention, had an errand I had to run take a lot more time than expected. Wasn’t trying to judge it, but still… c’mon universe! A bunch of that ate in to time I would have spent working on Swami’s tour.
I think that’s about it. Today felt a bit bumper, but made it through it and still going strong.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, guided meditation.
Said today had a lot of other stuff come up!
Weight: 145
Interesting day. The first 6 days of the fast I only drank a little more than 2 gallons of water, today I went through almost a gallon. Was really thirsty most of the day. They say on a water fast to only drink when thirsty. Didn’t seem like I had as much fluid coming out as I had coming in either, which is the opposite of some days. Also dropped two pounds to 145 today.
Can pretty much “blame” the advanced yoga class on that one, and I don’t know if I’ll be doing that or anymore classes while on this fast. My right hamstring definitely feels like it was strained a little. It was worse earlier in the day, so hopefully not too badly. I was sore too, but in a more painfully bad than good way. Something to monitor and see if the body feels up for another class at some point, but I don’t want to increase the weight loss either.
Got to bed at an earlier time which I liked. Read for about an hour and got to sleep fairly well, woke up after about an hour, then believe I slept with no waking till 8:30 am and decided to get up then. Body temp was 95.5, yikes! But it went up as the day went on.
Hunger pangs seemed a little stronger today, but still tolerable, still got the white coat on my tongue, and still some gassiness. Showering got me tired again, and I’ve noticed my calves seem to hurt/cramp while showering. Very odd.
Emotionally I was fine today, universe was trying to stress me, but I didn’t let it get to me... too much. Still craving and thinking about food. Today’s item that got the most thought was avocado and potato all mashed up together with some spices, no salt. No idea how it would work, but right now it sounds like heaven. Think it would be really healthy too.
Today I thought I’d be able to get a lot of stuff done, did… but not all the things I had hoped too. Stuff kept coming up that needed attention, had an errand I had to run take a lot more time than expected. Wasn’t trying to judge it, but still… c’mon universe! A bunch of that ate in to time I would have spent working on Swami’s tour.
I think that’s about it. Today felt a bit bumper, but made it through it and still going strong.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, guided meditation.
Said today had a lot of other stuff come up!
Weight: 145
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Day 6 of the Fast
Day 6
I’ve read about someone else’s account on water fasting, and for him the fast slowed time down and there was a lot of boredom. My non-water fast felt the same way, boredom wise. This fast, really haven’t seen any of that. Actually, it feels like time is going faster. There are things I plan to get done, and it just seems like I run out of time. I do have poor time management, I have to admit, but still it is really odd. It’s like, gaw.. it’s this time now?! Also helps the boredom that I have been out of the house and doing something almost every day. Can’t be bored, when out!
Last night, still got to bed later than I wanted, but earlier than I had the past two nights. Took me about 2 hours to fall asleep. Got up, umm.. I think it was around noon? Don’t entirely remember. Wanted to be up sooner, but think I got about 7 hours of sleep. It can be hard for me to get up in the mornings (relatively speaking), if I don’t have somewhere to go. On the fast, that seems to be worse, but that does make sense.
I was feeling cold again today. Not freezing, but definitely cold. My weight was 147 again, so no pounds lost. I was feeling some more weakness/tiredness today than the past three days. Started during my shower and continued for a while. Took an advance yoga class, and I was really feeling it. Winding much quicker, in some poses I normally don’t get winded in. At one point during one I was starting to feel all tingly. Slight bit of stars too. Quite the new experience. Also felt some nausea during class. Afterward, wow.. felt real tired. Chest wasn’t feeling well either (this happened during too), but I believe that was due to my heart chakra and lungs a little. The heart itself, I believe is fine, besides my pulse seeming to be a little faster than usual.
Still thinking about food. Was thinking about french fries dipped in ketchup while trying to sleep. I would love some Indian food! Heck.. give me some plain rise. I could go on and on. Need to try and keep the mind focused off food. Potato chips!!!!
I would say everything is going well, and while I was thinking the advanced yoga class might use up my fuel reserves, my body is now indicating it can go longer. Definitely won’t complain about that. Not having to spend time cooking/eating is actually quite nice. Saves money too.
Edit: Forgot to mention, wrist, knees, and neck still feeling some pain. My hamstrings, while I didn't overstretch them seemed to be a bit upset about taking class. Also been forgetting to mention, so have a white coating on my tongue, which is supposed to be detoxing, no idea if I also have bad breath from it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, the Five Tibetan Rites, guided meditation, and advanced yoga class.
Didn’t get the meditation in, like I wanted, but I plan to get to bed sooner tonight to read. Besides, the advance class took a lot out of me and yoga can be seen as a form of meditation.
Weight: 147
I’ve read about someone else’s account on water fasting, and for him the fast slowed time down and there was a lot of boredom. My non-water fast felt the same way, boredom wise. This fast, really haven’t seen any of that. Actually, it feels like time is going faster. There are things I plan to get done, and it just seems like I run out of time. I do have poor time management, I have to admit, but still it is really odd. It’s like, gaw.. it’s this time now?! Also helps the boredom that I have been out of the house and doing something almost every day. Can’t be bored, when out!
Last night, still got to bed later than I wanted, but earlier than I had the past two nights. Took me about 2 hours to fall asleep. Got up, umm.. I think it was around noon? Don’t entirely remember. Wanted to be up sooner, but think I got about 7 hours of sleep. It can be hard for me to get up in the mornings (relatively speaking), if I don’t have somewhere to go. On the fast, that seems to be worse, but that does make sense.
I was feeling cold again today. Not freezing, but definitely cold. My weight was 147 again, so no pounds lost. I was feeling some more weakness/tiredness today than the past three days. Started during my shower and continued for a while. Took an advance yoga class, and I was really feeling it. Winding much quicker, in some poses I normally don’t get winded in. At one point during one I was starting to feel all tingly. Slight bit of stars too. Quite the new experience. Also felt some nausea during class. Afterward, wow.. felt real tired. Chest wasn’t feeling well either (this happened during too), but I believe that was due to my heart chakra and lungs a little. The heart itself, I believe is fine, besides my pulse seeming to be a little faster than usual.
Still thinking about food. Was thinking about french fries dipped in ketchup while trying to sleep. I would love some Indian food! Heck.. give me some plain rise. I could go on and on. Need to try and keep the mind focused off food. Potato chips!!!!
I would say everything is going well, and while I was thinking the advanced yoga class might use up my fuel reserves, my body is now indicating it can go longer. Definitely won’t complain about that. Not having to spend time cooking/eating is actually quite nice. Saves money too.
Edit: Forgot to mention, wrist, knees, and neck still feeling some pain. My hamstrings, while I didn't overstretch them seemed to be a bit upset about taking class. Also been forgetting to mention, so have a white coating on my tongue, which is supposed to be detoxing, no idea if I also have bad breath from it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, the Five Tibetan Rites, guided meditation, and advanced yoga class.
Didn’t get the meditation in, like I wanted, but I plan to get to bed sooner tonight to read. Besides, the advance class took a lot out of me and yoga can be seen as a form of meditation.
Weight: 147
Monday, February 22, 2010
Day 5 of the Fast
Day 5
I noticed something amazing today. I had surgery on my left elbow in 97, I believe. Left this big lump of scar tissue on my lower forearm. Today the lump is a lot smaller now. Seems my body is using it as fuel. As I read while water fasting, the body goes to using fat and unneeded tissue to sustain itself.
Today I weighed in at 147 pounds. Down 3, but I felt kind of thirsty before going to bed. I don't like drinking before bed, since it means having to get up to urinate during the night. So.. maybe a tad dehydrated. Weight went up after drinking some water. But I stick with the morning weight, to try and keep the measures at the same time.
I didn’t really remember feeling tired today. Maybe a little bit, maybe some weakness, but really well in that area. I did get to bed a bit too late again, slept longer and better. Still woke up some, but that can be “normal” for me too. Might have gotten 8 hours of sleep total.
Was feeling cold today. Not too bad, but definitely was trying to keep myself bundled up. No real moments of feeling hot. Emotionally, pretty darn good too. Still thinking about food at times. Some hunger pangs too.
Actually had a good amount of stool pass around 6 pm. That surprised me. Can’t image it is from when I last ate, so hopefully it is the body de-toxing and cleaning out. Was feeling a bit like I was having a healing crisis too, colon was feeling a bit crampy and unhappy at times. Also a bit gassy, some burping, and.. other.
Did some conscious movement with the wonderful Ali. Some yoga, the Five Tibetan Rites, dancing, meditation, and pranayamas. I was feeling a little “drained” when I got there, but once we started moving I was fine. Didn’t feel a lack of energy at all. Was a great time. Although there was food being cooked in the kitchen and it smelled so good. Every inhale I was getting it, and it was making the monkey mind really rattle its cage. But I didn’t let the effect my great time.
My wrists and neck, still bothering me a bit. Knees too, they are still the worst out of the three.
Activities: ~25 minutes meditation, ~40 minutes pranayamas, the Five Tibetan Rites, guided meditation, the conscious movement (Some yoga, the Five Tibetan Rites, dancing, meditation, and pranayamas which aren’t included in the above), and another guided meditation followed by ~25 minutes of meditation.
Weight: 147
I noticed something amazing today. I had surgery on my left elbow in 97, I believe. Left this big lump of scar tissue on my lower forearm. Today the lump is a lot smaller now. Seems my body is using it as fuel. As I read while water fasting, the body goes to using fat and unneeded tissue to sustain itself.
Today I weighed in at 147 pounds. Down 3, but I felt kind of thirsty before going to bed. I don't like drinking before bed, since it means having to get up to urinate during the night. So.. maybe a tad dehydrated. Weight went up after drinking some water. But I stick with the morning weight, to try and keep the measures at the same time.
I didn’t really remember feeling tired today. Maybe a little bit, maybe some weakness, but really well in that area. I did get to bed a bit too late again, slept longer and better. Still woke up some, but that can be “normal” for me too. Might have gotten 8 hours of sleep total.
Was feeling cold today. Not too bad, but definitely was trying to keep myself bundled up. No real moments of feeling hot. Emotionally, pretty darn good too. Still thinking about food at times. Some hunger pangs too.
Actually had a good amount of stool pass around 6 pm. That surprised me. Can’t image it is from when I last ate, so hopefully it is the body de-toxing and cleaning out. Was feeling a bit like I was having a healing crisis too, colon was feeling a bit crampy and unhappy at times. Also a bit gassy, some burping, and.. other.
Did some conscious movement with the wonderful Ali. Some yoga, the Five Tibetan Rites, dancing, meditation, and pranayamas. I was feeling a little “drained” when I got there, but once we started moving I was fine. Didn’t feel a lack of energy at all. Was a great time. Although there was food being cooked in the kitchen and it smelled so good. Every inhale I was getting it, and it was making the monkey mind really rattle its cage. But I didn’t let the effect my great time.
My wrists and neck, still bothering me a bit. Knees too, they are still the worst out of the three.
Activities: ~25 minutes meditation, ~40 minutes pranayamas, the Five Tibetan Rites, guided meditation, the conscious movement (Some yoga, the Five Tibetan Rites, dancing, meditation, and pranayamas which aren’t included in the above), and another guided meditation followed by ~25 minutes of meditation.
Weight: 147
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Day 4 of the Fast
Day 4
The extreme weight loss has happily stopped, only 150 now. 1 pound, but since I don’t have decimals on my scale, could have been a half a pound.
Got to sleep at 3 am the night before, got up at 10 am. At the most I had 6 hours of sleep during that time, waking up a bunch of times. Could have been less, but didn’t feel like I missed out on any sleep. I really didn’t feel tired or weak during the day, besides some minor points after waking. I had planned to do my pranayamas and 1 hour meditation before I went out to an emotional clearing workshop at 1 pm, but I was so enjoying being curled up on the couch I only did the pranayamas. Meditation was done later in the day.
After the workshop I went to a psychic fair. Spent some time there. So fairly active day, but didn’t feel draining at all.
I did feel some moments of heat during the day. No real cold moments. Still having some minor hunger pangs, but not as bad and they don’t last too long. I really haven’t been light headed or had a headache during this experience either, maybe some very mild ones from time to time.
Still some pain in the wrists and neck, but maybe a little less than normal. Knees seem to be a little less too, definitely less than how they had been feeling.
Overall, I would say I’m doing really well. I think my body has balanced to the lack of food and entered ketosis.
As for the mental side, I’d say that is going well too. I do think about food at times, sometimes reaching an, “omg, I would kill for this,” but those aren’t too often. Mmm.. watermelon.. gimme damnit! Usually happens more when something reminds me of food. Big Macs.. mmm.. eww! Emotionally, I haven’t noticed much releasing. I thought I’d have more of that happening, but not judging or expecting anything. Although I have been involved in activities that help release too, and why complain when the releasing is done positively and doesn’t have you feeling awful?
Did use another enema in the evening. Felt needed, moved a little.
Oh, and fasting highs totally rock!
Activities: ~40 minutes of pranayamas and 1 hour meditation.
Yeah, I got lazy today, but not judging myself.
Weight: 150
The extreme weight loss has happily stopped, only 150 now. 1 pound, but since I don’t have decimals on my scale, could have been a half a pound.
Got to sleep at 3 am the night before, got up at 10 am. At the most I had 6 hours of sleep during that time, waking up a bunch of times. Could have been less, but didn’t feel like I missed out on any sleep. I really didn’t feel tired or weak during the day, besides some minor points after waking. I had planned to do my pranayamas and 1 hour meditation before I went out to an emotional clearing workshop at 1 pm, but I was so enjoying being curled up on the couch I only did the pranayamas. Meditation was done later in the day.
After the workshop I went to a psychic fair. Spent some time there. So fairly active day, but didn’t feel draining at all.
I did feel some moments of heat during the day. No real cold moments. Still having some minor hunger pangs, but not as bad and they don’t last too long. I really haven’t been light headed or had a headache during this experience either, maybe some very mild ones from time to time.
Still some pain in the wrists and neck, but maybe a little less than normal. Knees seem to be a little less too, definitely less than how they had been feeling.
Overall, I would say I’m doing really well. I think my body has balanced to the lack of food and entered ketosis.
As for the mental side, I’d say that is going well too. I do think about food at times, sometimes reaching an, “omg, I would kill for this,” but those aren’t too often. Mmm.. watermelon.. gimme damnit! Usually happens more when something reminds me of food. Big Macs.. mmm.. eww! Emotionally, I haven’t noticed much releasing. I thought I’d have more of that happening, but not judging or expecting anything. Although I have been involved in activities that help release too, and why complain when the releasing is done positively and doesn’t have you feeling awful?
Did use another enema in the evening. Felt needed, moved a little.
Oh, and fasting highs totally rock!
Activities: ~40 minutes of pranayamas and 1 hour meditation.
Yeah, I got lazy today, but not judging myself.
Weight: 150
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Day 3 of the Fast
Day 3
First thing I do is a weigh myself in the morning, after having urinated. My weight was at 151 pounds, meaning I lost 8 pounds in 2 days. This would have concerned me, but I realized I have had too much salt in my diet, and judging by how much I had urinated during the night, compared to water intake, I had been letting go of a lot of water I had been holding in. No salt, so it left.
Was feeling a little tired/weak after I got up, when I took a shower, hit a bit harder and I decided to sit/kneel down and just enjoy the water on me. Didn’t do this long, since I didn’t want to waste water. I also didn’t need to do this, just felt like it.
After the shower, I was feeling better. As the day went on I got fuller of energy. Definite change from the day before. Right now it is 2:35 am as I type this, and not tired. Will try to sleep by 3 am even if I’m not tired. I did have some food thinking and desiring. Also had some hunger pangs. A bit after I got up it was a mixture of hunger pangs and nausea. That fortunately went away, and the hunger pangs weren’t as bad as the day before. No restless feeling legs either. I did seem a bit gassy though, burping a lot.
I also wasn't feeling too much of a temperature change. Did feel hot at some points, but not really cold.
Went to a dance jam, wasn’t a ton of dancing, but it was fun and didn’t feel like it drained me at all.
Emotionally, I was feeling surprisingly good, felt some releasing happen, but it happened in a good feeling way. Also got some stuff out at the dance jam.
Neck and wrist only bothered me as much as they normally do, while knees were still feeling a bit worse.
I ended the day with a soak in the tub with epson salt and lavender, peppermint, and spearmint oils, followed by abhyangha (oil application) with sesame oil.
Activities: ~40 minutes of pranayamas, 1 hour mediation, some guided meditations, and the dance jam.
Weight: 151
First thing I do is a weigh myself in the morning, after having urinated. My weight was at 151 pounds, meaning I lost 8 pounds in 2 days. This would have concerned me, but I realized I have had too much salt in my diet, and judging by how much I had urinated during the night, compared to water intake, I had been letting go of a lot of water I had been holding in. No salt, so it left.
Was feeling a little tired/weak after I got up, when I took a shower, hit a bit harder and I decided to sit/kneel down and just enjoy the water on me. Didn’t do this long, since I didn’t want to waste water. I also didn’t need to do this, just felt like it.
After the shower, I was feeling better. As the day went on I got fuller of energy. Definite change from the day before. Right now it is 2:35 am as I type this, and not tired. Will try to sleep by 3 am even if I’m not tired. I did have some food thinking and desiring. Also had some hunger pangs. A bit after I got up it was a mixture of hunger pangs and nausea. That fortunately went away, and the hunger pangs weren’t as bad as the day before. No restless feeling legs either. I did seem a bit gassy though, burping a lot.
I also wasn't feeling too much of a temperature change. Did feel hot at some points, but not really cold.
Went to a dance jam, wasn’t a ton of dancing, but it was fun and didn’t feel like it drained me at all.
Emotionally, I was feeling surprisingly good, felt some releasing happen, but it happened in a good feeling way. Also got some stuff out at the dance jam.
Neck and wrist only bothered me as much as they normally do, while knees were still feeling a bit worse.
I ended the day with a soak in the tub with epson salt and lavender, peppermint, and spearmint oils, followed by abhyangha (oil application) with sesame oil.
Activities: ~40 minutes of pranayamas, 1 hour mediation, some guided meditations, and the dance jam.
Weight: 151
Friday, February 19, 2010
Day 2 of the Fast
Day 2
This day was more fun. Was feeling really hot, while my feet felt cold. This happened with other parts of my body, some feeling hot, others cold. There were some just cold moments too. Most of the day I was feeling tired and weak, like I could have gone to bed or taken a nap. Also felt like I was having restless legs, like they wanted to be moving.
Hunger pangs were definitely annoying this day. Was also thinking about and desiring food more. Felt real close to breaking the fast a couple of times. Emotionally, I was having this hate come up. Hate at how my body is unhealthy, and how I have for a long time had to worry about what I ate and had a lot of restrictions on what I could eat. In the regard that, if I have plans or a busy day the next day, eating a lot (or normal) could really infer with them. It really sucks! The feeling was I just wanted to be healthy and able to eat like a “normal” person, with no worries about how poorly the food passes out me.
My wrists, neck, and knees were hurting more than usual this day. I’ll call it just detoxing/healing and so it shall be.
I did use an enema in the evening, because it felt like it was needed. The GI problems do make clearing out not always easy, and it did is job. So glad I listened. Although when/if I do a water fast again, I think getting a colonic the second day would be better.
When I went to bed around 10 pm, I wasn’t feeling nearly as tired. Got about 3 hours of sleep, then found myself wide awake at 2 am. Got up and went back to bed at 4:30 am, got about 5 to 6 hours of sleep and eventually was up at noon. Lots of waking up and going back to sleep.
Activities: ~40 minutes of pranayamas, the Five Tibetan Rites, and some guided meditations.
I had also wanted to do an hour of meditation, but felt too tired during the day. Let my mind win in not doing it later in the night.
Weight: 156
This day was more fun. Was feeling really hot, while my feet felt cold. This happened with other parts of my body, some feeling hot, others cold. There were some just cold moments too. Most of the day I was feeling tired and weak, like I could have gone to bed or taken a nap. Also felt like I was having restless legs, like they wanted to be moving.
Hunger pangs were definitely annoying this day. Was also thinking about and desiring food more. Felt real close to breaking the fast a couple of times. Emotionally, I was having this hate come up. Hate at how my body is unhealthy, and how I have for a long time had to worry about what I ate and had a lot of restrictions on what I could eat. In the regard that, if I have plans or a busy day the next day, eating a lot (or normal) could really infer with them. It really sucks! The feeling was I just wanted to be healthy and able to eat like a “normal” person, with no worries about how poorly the food passes out me.
My wrists, neck, and knees were hurting more than usual this day. I’ll call it just detoxing/healing and so it shall be.
I did use an enema in the evening, because it felt like it was needed. The GI problems do make clearing out not always easy, and it did is job. So glad I listened. Although when/if I do a water fast again, I think getting a colonic the second day would be better.
When I went to bed around 10 pm, I wasn’t feeling nearly as tired. Got about 3 hours of sleep, then found myself wide awake at 2 am. Got up and went back to bed at 4:30 am, got about 5 to 6 hours of sleep and eventually was up at noon. Lots of waking up and going back to sleep.
Activities: ~40 minutes of pranayamas, the Five Tibetan Rites, and some guided meditations.
I had also wanted to do an hour of meditation, but felt too tired during the day. Let my mind win in not doing it later in the night.
Weight: 156
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Day 1 of the Fast
Day 1
This day was pretty easy. Not much was going on mentally, and did have some hunger pangs, but they weren’t too bad. The most major thing I dealt with this day was the results of having drank about 2/3 of a bottle of prune juice the night before to help me cleanse out.
Activities: ~40 minutes of pranayamas, 1 hour meditation, advanced yoga class, the Five Tibetan Rites, and some guided meditations.
Weight: 159
This day was pretty easy. Not much was going on mentally, and did have some hunger pangs, but they weren’t too bad. The most major thing I dealt with this day was the results of having drank about 2/3 of a bottle of prune juice the night before to help me cleanse out.
Activities: ~40 minutes of pranayamas, 1 hour meditation, advanced yoga class, the Five Tibetan Rites, and some guided meditations.
Weight: 159
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Why I am fasting on water.
I recently did a non-water fast, and a couple of weeks after it, I felt guided to do a complete water fast. The idea at first was to could break my attachment to food. It was not a healthy one. After researching it, I found it can have some amazing health benefits too. Giving the body/GI tract a rest to focus all of its energy on healing.
I do have some health issues, especially with my GI tract. So this seemed like the perfect thing for me to do.
With all that, I decided that it would be best, and I figure creating a journal of the experience will help give some insight to others who are also interested in fasting on just water.
Edit:
Forgot to mention, during the fast I am practicing celibacy. Releasing those types of bodily fluids takes energy away from the body, plus vitamins, minerals, etc. When I'm driving, no radio. Also can drain energy. I have been watching a little TV, which can drain too.. but ya know.. I'm restricting a lot! I've been watching a lot less than I use to though.
To prepare for the fast, I ate fairly healthy before hand, including foods like cabbage that move through you easily, and for the 2-3 weeks before hand, I was taking psyllium to help me cleanse. Good to try and cleanse yourself before water fasting. Supposed to make it easier. Then the night before I started, drank 3/4ths of a bottle of prune juice. That was fun!
I do have some health issues, especially with my GI tract. So this seemed like the perfect thing for me to do.
With all that, I decided that it would be best, and I figure creating a journal of the experience will help give some insight to others who are also interested in fasting on just water.
Edit:
Forgot to mention, during the fast I am practicing celibacy. Releasing those types of bodily fluids takes energy away from the body, plus vitamins, minerals, etc. When I'm driving, no radio. Also can drain energy. I have been watching a little TV, which can drain too.. but ya know.. I'm restricting a lot! I've been watching a lot less than I use to though.
To prepare for the fast, I ate fairly healthy before hand, including foods like cabbage that move through you easily, and for the 2-3 weeks before hand, I was taking psyllium to help me cleanse. Good to try and cleanse yourself before water fasting. Supposed to make it easier. Then the night before I started, drank 3/4ths of a bottle of prune juice. That was fun!
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