Day 20
I’m quite glad I underwent this experience. My first impulse in doing it was to break an unhealthy attachment to food, and while I don’t know if that was accomplished, I actually discovered what the unhealthy attachment was. My ego used food to hurt me and my body. There were times where I felt I couldn’t control myself in what I was eating, now I know where that came from, and I can put a stop to it.
As for healing, I know and believe my GI tract system is healthier now. I just won’t be seeing those results quite yet. Nothing to worry or care about, those will come and I will be wonderful grateful at my new found health. Or should I say, rediscovery at a return of the great health I use to be in.
So, went about half the day with water. Lost another pound, but I peed a lot this morning before weighing myself. Still some rumbling and cramping in the intestines. Tongue was still coated, so got detoxing to do while juicing. Still body pain in the sides and lower back. Kind of cold today. Emotionally I was feeling good and excited to change to a juice fast.
Had a wonderful energy psychology session (or EFT) today, everything that was in my way of keeping me from being healthy by the end of the month is gone now. Still up to me and my actions and thoughts, to get their though. But I will be traveling with Swami and I will be healthy.
Think that’s about it, I’ll continue the juicing part of this day in a juicing blog.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and guided.
Weight: 136
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Day 19 of the Fast
Day 19
The past three days have been pretty wonderful. Definitely my best three days in a row on this fast. Was so full of energy today, went for a walk and I was feeling so calm and at peace. It was magically. It makes me kind of want to continue with the water fasting, but the body and higher guidance have spoken and I will be transitioning to a juice fast tomorrow. I’m not sure how long it will last, yet.
That calm peaceful feeling was definitely a feeling of being on the right path though. Peaceful and everything is as it is supposed to be.
So, lost a pound. Tongue is still coated, but mostly the center and left side. Colon still a bit ugh feeling, but wasn’t too bad today. Did have some cramping. Was a bit of a cold feeling day, but it was fine. Do get some pain from under my ribs, not under them, but lower down in my body. Lower back seems to be acting up again.
Going back to the good, last weekend it seemed like my eyes were getting lighter (been dark brown) and starting to get specs of gold. This weekend, I thought they were getting darker, almost like I was losing my light. Not sure how to word that correctly, but today they were looking lighter again. My guess, as I continue to detox my body with juice, they could continue to get a bit lighter with more gold. At least, I’d like that.
Oh, my belly, there is still belly fat (don’t care), but it seems to be a lot less bloated/sticking out, then it use to be. Hopefully that means the intestines are much healthier now. And I have been still gassy and feeling a bit bloated, so given that, plus the big decrease, I’m saying it is a great positive sign.
What else is there to say? The fast, while it was brutal at times, has definitely been beautiful (to steal someone else’s phrase), and I’m quite excited to see all the healing my system has undertaken during this experience.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, guided meditation, and a walk about 45 minutes.
Weight: 137
The past three days have been pretty wonderful. Definitely my best three days in a row on this fast. Was so full of energy today, went for a walk and I was feeling so calm and at peace. It was magically. It makes me kind of want to continue with the water fasting, but the body and higher guidance have spoken and I will be transitioning to a juice fast tomorrow. I’m not sure how long it will last, yet.
That calm peaceful feeling was definitely a feeling of being on the right path though. Peaceful and everything is as it is supposed to be.
So, lost a pound. Tongue is still coated, but mostly the center and left side. Colon still a bit ugh feeling, but wasn’t too bad today. Did have some cramping. Was a bit of a cold feeling day, but it was fine. Do get some pain from under my ribs, not under them, but lower down in my body. Lower back seems to be acting up again.
Going back to the good, last weekend it seemed like my eyes were getting lighter (been dark brown) and starting to get specs of gold. This weekend, I thought they were getting darker, almost like I was losing my light. Not sure how to word that correctly, but today they were looking lighter again. My guess, as I continue to detox my body with juice, they could continue to get a bit lighter with more gold. At least, I’d like that.
Oh, my belly, there is still belly fat (don’t care), but it seems to be a lot less bloated/sticking out, then it use to be. Hopefully that means the intestines are much healthier now. And I have been still gassy and feeling a bit bloated, so given that, plus the big decrease, I’m saying it is a great positive sign.
What else is there to say? The fast, while it was brutal at times, has definitely been beautiful (to steal someone else’s phrase), and I’m quite excited to see all the healing my system has undertaken during this experience.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, guided meditation, and a walk about 45 minutes.
Weight: 137
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Day 18 of the Fast
Day 18
I slept fairly well last night, but I accomplished this by going to bed later than I wanted too. Seems while on the fast my body wants to get to bed later and sleep in later. And I had hoped to re-adjust my sleep schedule when fasting. Now I know!
Didn’t lose any weight. Another good energy day, actually went out for a walk because it got up to 50. Did have some cold moments, but I was fine for the walk. First time it has been above 40 I think. Tongue is still coated in some areas, colon still feeling some bloating, rumbling, fullness, but maybe not as bad today. Still got gas though.
Also believe I have come to a decision. My goal has been to fast to completion, but today from higher guidance and my body, I’m feeling for my body, completion doesn’t mean going to true hunger, but switching to juice for perhaps a week. Feels like that would be best, and plan to do that in the afternoon of day 20 or on day 21. Body hasn’t given clear directions on that yet. Feels like the right choice though, I was getting attached to going to “true hunger” while saying I wasn’t attached to a number. My focus was getting too locked in on one thing.
I know I have done some healing, and I know this change will finish the healing. I will be healthy by the end of this month. That’s my intention, my goal, and the reality I’m creating. I’m actually healthy now, to be honest, but the illusion/reality I currently exist in has me not so much. So, changing that, to one in which I do reflect my true self. A physically strong and healthy person with a perfectly function body and GI tract.
I'm quite excited.
Hmm… not sure what else to say, so the end for now.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, guided meditations, and a walk about 40 minutes.
Weight: 138
I slept fairly well last night, but I accomplished this by going to bed later than I wanted too. Seems while on the fast my body wants to get to bed later and sleep in later. And I had hoped to re-adjust my sleep schedule when fasting. Now I know!
Didn’t lose any weight. Another good energy day, actually went out for a walk because it got up to 50. Did have some cold moments, but I was fine for the walk. First time it has been above 40 I think. Tongue is still coated in some areas, colon still feeling some bloating, rumbling, fullness, but maybe not as bad today. Still got gas though.
Also believe I have come to a decision. My goal has been to fast to completion, but today from higher guidance and my body, I’m feeling for my body, completion doesn’t mean going to true hunger, but switching to juice for perhaps a week. Feels like that would be best, and plan to do that in the afternoon of day 20 or on day 21. Body hasn’t given clear directions on that yet. Feels like the right choice though, I was getting attached to going to “true hunger” while saying I wasn’t attached to a number. My focus was getting too locked in on one thing.
I know I have done some healing, and I know this change will finish the healing. I will be healthy by the end of this month. That’s my intention, my goal, and the reality I’m creating. I’m actually healthy now, to be honest, but the illusion/reality I currently exist in has me not so much. So, changing that, to one in which I do reflect my true self. A physically strong and healthy person with a perfectly function body and GI tract.
I'm quite excited.
Hmm… not sure what else to say, so the end for now.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, guided meditations, and a walk about 40 minutes.
Weight: 138
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Day 17 of the Fast
Day 17
Another restless night last night. After lying in bed for an hour and a half, got up and did some more work at the computer for Swami. Yesterday with the realization I wanted to travel with him, I rededicated myself to having everything finished and placing my faith in his Guru it will be done. Ended up getting about four hours of sleep. The amazing part, for the first time in about 2 weeks, I wasn’t really tired at all today. I wasn’t dragging myself at all. Much gratitude to the Swami and Guru. Spirituality can help a fast.
Hunger pangs seemed a bit worse today, however. They don’t last long, but at times do come back quicker. Pretty positive it isn’t true hunger yet, since it hasn’t been nearly as bad as I have heard it was. Tongue is still coated, muscle in my back I strained a while go is still bothering me, neck a bit too, colon is still making itself know to me, but really wasn’t cold today. Still thirsty, but not nearly as thirsty as I have been.
I have thought about food some, but when I focus my mind on the things I need to get done, there are no thoughts of food. Emotionally I was feeling good today.
Dropped a pound, but mostly just water weight. Felt like I should drink late last night, but I really didn’t feel like it. I know that can be bad.
Went to a yoga class tonight, called Maha Sadhana, but only stayed for the first hour plus when we did chanting, purification techniques, and had spiritual discourse. Great to have happen while fasting, because you are “detoxing” the spiritual and physical body with those techniques. Always good to find extra ways to help the fasting process in its detoxing. I will be chanting the purification mantra now as much as I can remember to do too, because it helps heal disease. Exactly what I want help with.
Had some light headed starry moments getting up, not too bad. When I had to hold my arms up for about a minute or so in the class, definitely felt the muscles had no fuel in them. It is all good though, they will come back stronger with a healthy diet.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, + extra pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and a guided meditation.
Weight: 138
Another restless night last night. After lying in bed for an hour and a half, got up and did some more work at the computer for Swami. Yesterday with the realization I wanted to travel with him, I rededicated myself to having everything finished and placing my faith in his Guru it will be done. Ended up getting about four hours of sleep. The amazing part, for the first time in about 2 weeks, I wasn’t really tired at all today. I wasn’t dragging myself at all. Much gratitude to the Swami and Guru. Spirituality can help a fast.
Hunger pangs seemed a bit worse today, however. They don’t last long, but at times do come back quicker. Pretty positive it isn’t true hunger yet, since it hasn’t been nearly as bad as I have heard it was. Tongue is still coated, muscle in my back I strained a while go is still bothering me, neck a bit too, colon is still making itself know to me, but really wasn’t cold today. Still thirsty, but not nearly as thirsty as I have been.
I have thought about food some, but when I focus my mind on the things I need to get done, there are no thoughts of food. Emotionally I was feeling good today.
Dropped a pound, but mostly just water weight. Felt like I should drink late last night, but I really didn’t feel like it. I know that can be bad.
Went to a yoga class tonight, called Maha Sadhana, but only stayed for the first hour plus when we did chanting, purification techniques, and had spiritual discourse. Great to have happen while fasting, because you are “detoxing” the spiritual and physical body with those techniques. Always good to find extra ways to help the fasting process in its detoxing. I will be chanting the purification mantra now as much as I can remember to do too, because it helps heal disease. Exactly what I want help with.
Had some light headed starry moments getting up, not too bad. When I had to hold my arms up for about a minute or so in the class, definitely felt the muscles had no fuel in them. It is all good though, they will come back stronger with a healthy diet.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, + extra pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and a guided meditation.
Weight: 138
Friday, March 5, 2010
Day 16 of the Fast
Day 16
I realized something today. I think I would like to travel with Swami on his tour of the Midwest and West coast this year. It will be starting on April 14th and if this fast goes to completion by 30 days, it will end on March 19th. Giving me about 2 and a half weeks to observe how my body has healed and get it back on solid food again. And hope it would be able to handle tour food. Not the healthiest in the world, but also not that bad.
But… I believe this will heal me. So I don’t need to think about that. I will have a normal functioning GI tract and being on tour will be easy. No long bathroom stops, no need for a bunch of stops per day, what goes in me will come out of me easily and quickly. The only thing I will have to watch is weight gain and the “normal” ick feeling someone might get after eating poorly and stuffing him or herself. I will be able to indulge at an Indian buffet and be fine the next day to continue travel with no issues (Actually it would be better to say, when staying at an Indian family home, I could let them lovingly stuff me without any problems the next day. They love doing that because food/giving is love).
That is the intention I’m setting and so it shall be.
Wow though… website needs a lot of work and there is still a ton of cities I need to have set up. I got a lot to do while fasting to be able to go!
Anyway, no weight loss. Another poor night of sleep, with lots of dreams, but I don’t remember any being about food. Tongue is still coated, but not totally, I was cold today, and dragging myself for the first part of the day from feeling tired and drained. Although it seems once I throw myself in to working on setting up Swami’s tour (and website), I feel less tired and fuller of energy.
Still some gas, not as much today I think. Colon has still been rumbling, feeling a bit bloated, and not the happiest. Didn’t try to pass anything though, giving it a break from trying. Hopefully it will let me when it really needs too. Been getting some general body aches and pain. Wrists have been feeling decent, neck and knees still trouble me. Also still thinking about food a lot. Not really craving, just a more desire to be done fasting and getting back in to the swing of eating.
I don’t think I’ve been as thirsty today, still thirsty, just not as much. Emotionally, I got a little grumpy for a bit but it passed. Have been seeing stars at times when getting up, not all the time, and I think only once or twice did I see nothing but stars. And I think that’s it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and a guided meditation.
Weight: 139
I realized something today. I think I would like to travel with Swami on his tour of the Midwest and West coast this year. It will be starting on April 14th and if this fast goes to completion by 30 days, it will end on March 19th. Giving me about 2 and a half weeks to observe how my body has healed and get it back on solid food again. And hope it would be able to handle tour food. Not the healthiest in the world, but also not that bad.
But… I believe this will heal me. So I don’t need to think about that. I will have a normal functioning GI tract and being on tour will be easy. No long bathroom stops, no need for a bunch of stops per day, what goes in me will come out of me easily and quickly. The only thing I will have to watch is weight gain and the “normal” ick feeling someone might get after eating poorly and stuffing him or herself. I will be able to indulge at an Indian buffet and be fine the next day to continue travel with no issues (Actually it would be better to say, when staying at an Indian family home, I could let them lovingly stuff me without any problems the next day. They love doing that because food/giving is love).
That is the intention I’m setting and so it shall be.
Wow though… website needs a lot of work and there is still a ton of cities I need to have set up. I got a lot to do while fasting to be able to go!
Anyway, no weight loss. Another poor night of sleep, with lots of dreams, but I don’t remember any being about food. Tongue is still coated, but not totally, I was cold today, and dragging myself for the first part of the day from feeling tired and drained. Although it seems once I throw myself in to working on setting up Swami’s tour (and website), I feel less tired and fuller of energy.
Still some gas, not as much today I think. Colon has still been rumbling, feeling a bit bloated, and not the happiest. Didn’t try to pass anything though, giving it a break from trying. Hopefully it will let me when it really needs too. Been getting some general body aches and pain. Wrists have been feeling decent, neck and knees still trouble me. Also still thinking about food a lot. Not really craving, just a more desire to be done fasting and getting back in to the swing of eating.
I don’t think I’ve been as thirsty today, still thirsty, just not as much. Emotionally, I got a little grumpy for a bit but it passed. Have been seeing stars at times when getting up, not all the time, and I think only once or twice did I see nothing but stars. And I think that’s it.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, an hour of meditation, and a guided meditation.
Weight: 139
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Day 15 of the Fast
Day 15
Another night of not sleeping too well, but I’ve had worse nights so I’m not complaining. Today though, ouch. A lot of the day I was just feeling tired unless I was lying down. This didn’t happen all of the day, just most of it. Not very pleasant when you have work to accomplish.
The colon is still not feeling too well, still been really thirsty, definitely been having moments of cold, and still having hunger pangs but they don’t seem to last too long. Still gassy as well. My tongue is also coated, but it seems to be less coated than it has been, so hopefully good news there.
Emotionally, today was fine. Just a sense of this wearing on me. Like I would like to be completed with the fast and healthy (then going on to the trying to break the fast slowly and right stage), but heck… if it is another 15 days of this to heal 15 years of problems, I’m more than happy to do that.
Been thinking about food a lot. Talking about food a lot today too. But you know what? It really doesn’t bother me. Be a lie to say it doesn’t at all, but no strong craving for it anymore. So really think I’ve moved past the food cravings stage.
Oh yeah… today and yesterday I needed to continue to be careful with getting up too fast. Light headed and stars if I didn’t, although that seemed to go away as today went on. Was getting a pain right under the bottom of my left side rib cage, could be intestinal related, but it is gone now. And a pound was lost.
Did have the energy to go to the beginning part of a yoga class... chanting and spiritual discourse, left for the asana part though. I know the body isn’t up for that.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas and an hour of meditation.
Weight: 139
Another night of not sleeping too well, but I’ve had worse nights so I’m not complaining. Today though, ouch. A lot of the day I was just feeling tired unless I was lying down. This didn’t happen all of the day, just most of it. Not very pleasant when you have work to accomplish.
The colon is still not feeling too well, still been really thirsty, definitely been having moments of cold, and still having hunger pangs but they don’t seem to last too long. Still gassy as well. My tongue is also coated, but it seems to be less coated than it has been, so hopefully good news there.
Emotionally, today was fine. Just a sense of this wearing on me. Like I would like to be completed with the fast and healthy (then going on to the trying to break the fast slowly and right stage), but heck… if it is another 15 days of this to heal 15 years of problems, I’m more than happy to do that.
Been thinking about food a lot. Talking about food a lot today too. But you know what? It really doesn’t bother me. Be a lie to say it doesn’t at all, but no strong craving for it anymore. So really think I’ve moved past the food cravings stage.
Oh yeah… today and yesterday I needed to continue to be careful with getting up too fast. Light headed and stars if I didn’t, although that seemed to go away as today went on. Was getting a pain right under the bottom of my left side rib cage, could be intestinal related, but it is gone now. And a pound was lost.
Did have the energy to go to the beginning part of a yoga class... chanting and spiritual discourse, left for the asana part though. I know the body isn’t up for that.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas and an hour of meditation.
Weight: 139
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Day 14 of the Fast
Day 14
Two weeks! I'm not really focused on the numbers, but wow... that is pretty darned amazing.
Last night I slept decently, which was nice. Didn’t get out of bed when I wanted too though, I have a nice warm water bed and it is nice being in, add to that, that I can use the excuse that giving my body more rest is a good thing, why not stay in it longer?!
Was having moments of tired and weakness today, more so than yesterday. They are getting old. Still had some hunger pangs, also moments of cold today. I definitely need to keep myself dressed warm. My tongue is still coated, throat has some slight moments of soreness still and feels coated, but my throat really didn’t feel swollen at all today.
My colon is still not feeling good, but since that is the main area I need to have heal, I’m going with it is just part of the healing process. Could be healing crisis. Whatever it is, I know the colon will be functioning a lot better once this fast has been completed.
Dreamed last night I broke the fast with some sort of fruit, then celery. There was also a lemon large enough for a man to curl up inside of. Crazy. But during the day, food cravings have been good again. My mind was striking up more thoughts of food today, but they really weren’t bothering me or making me wish to break the fast. Hopefully I’m past the cravings now.
Went to a Satsang tonight where I got “trained” to be a Sai Maa Diksha teacher. Quite unexpected, and more good positive energies to have flow through me. So I’m sure that will have a positive effect too.
And... that’s it I think.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, Hour of meditation, guided meditations, and 15 minutes of pranayamas.
Weight: 140
Two weeks! I'm not really focused on the numbers, but wow... that is pretty darned amazing.
Last night I slept decently, which was nice. Didn’t get out of bed when I wanted too though, I have a nice warm water bed and it is nice being in, add to that, that I can use the excuse that giving my body more rest is a good thing, why not stay in it longer?!
Was having moments of tired and weakness today, more so than yesterday. They are getting old. Still had some hunger pangs, also moments of cold today. I definitely need to keep myself dressed warm. My tongue is still coated, throat has some slight moments of soreness still and feels coated, but my throat really didn’t feel swollen at all today.
My colon is still not feeling good, but since that is the main area I need to have heal, I’m going with it is just part of the healing process. Could be healing crisis. Whatever it is, I know the colon will be functioning a lot better once this fast has been completed.
Dreamed last night I broke the fast with some sort of fruit, then celery. There was also a lemon large enough for a man to curl up inside of. Crazy. But during the day, food cravings have been good again. My mind was striking up more thoughts of food today, but they really weren’t bothering me or making me wish to break the fast. Hopefully I’m past the cravings now.
Went to a Satsang tonight where I got “trained” to be a Sai Maa Diksha teacher. Quite unexpected, and more good positive energies to have flow through me. So I’m sure that will have a positive effect too.
And... that’s it I think.
Activities: ~40 minutes pranayamas, Hour of meditation, guided meditations, and 15 minutes of pranayamas.
Weight: 140
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